Hmmm. Updating this after a long while. Just finished internship on 29th of Dec 2010. After 3 months, I dont feel like leaving the hotel to continue my study. Training life was so enjoyable. Everyone treats me so nice like a little sister. I know different treatment will be given if I'm not a trainee but a permanent staff. But I really like to be treated as a lil' sis. I'm insane I know.
Life is so miserable when I've no target. I really dont know what to do (as in long-term). I need someone to enlighten me. But who. I know my problem. The biggest problem is I have never tried to open up my mind and talk to someone for guides. I dont understand why ain't I like everyone else, can at least talk to someone. Not like I have nobody to talk to. What's my problem?! I'm just a coward. Chicken up so easily. People think that I'm a shy person. I guess it's not shy, it's fake.
Dont know why suddenly so emo. Oh.. It's New Year. I'm one year older now but I'm still useless. Can do nothing but just wasting time and money. Shall feel ashamed of myself.
