Actions are louder than Words..

Actions are louder than words. 讲。真的很容易。做很难。

Somewhere from the Internet. Self reminder. 

四年前 他问她：“如果有一天我和别人结婚了，你怎么办？”
她说“你敢，弄死你，哈哈”
他搂过她，亲了一下笑着说：“我哪可能娶别人啊”

两年前 他又问：“如果有一天我和别人结婚了，你怎么办？”
“如果有那天，我一辈子不嫁，一直等你”他搂过她，抱的很紧。

四年后的今天 他又问：“如果有一天我和别人结婚了，你怎么办？”
她坐在他身旁，看着他的眼睛，很平静的说：“找个人嫁了，结婚。”
他说：“你不爱我了？”
“对，你都跟别人结婚了，都不要我了，我还爱你干什么，爱和不爱有区别吗？”

末了，她还说了句：“放心，如果有那一天，我肯定不等你"

时间变了，同一个问题，答案也变了，不是不爱，而是自己长大了……

曾经的我走了，现在的我发现：不是当初爱错了、而是时间变了……
相爱真的没想像中那么简单…不是守着空荡荡的誓言就能够地老天荒……

如果一个人说喜欢你爱你，请等到他对你百般照顾时再相信，
如果他答应带你去的地方，等他订好机票再开心，
如果他说要娶你，等他买好戒指跪在你面前再感动，
如果他说他不能没有你，等他无论多忙都会抽出时间陪在你身旁时再相信，
等他在发现了你消失了以后像发了疯一样的寻找到你之后再热泪盈眶。
如果他说他一辈子都会对你不弃不离，等他在你任何困难危难时都抓着你的手陪你坚强度过时再深信不疑。
感情不是说说而已，因为，我们已经过了耳听爱情的年纪。

突然想起一句话：“任何一个人，失去了另一个人，都会活得一如既往。”

也许，这就是答案

Was asked to speak out. When I said it out, it doesn't seem to make any difference. Instead I hear the same thing over and over again. Knowing that it's not easy to do what one has said, I blame no one but myself. I have chose to believe. So I guess the least I can do is have Faith.

Hee hee~

I have nothing much on hand. But that big project which is the key for my graduation is a lil mind effing... Lalalala~ I will continue it! Later. xDDD

Hee hee~ Life changing incident? Hahahahha~ Dont know. Somehow it's fun and sometimes can be kek sau. However, every time I am starting to grumble or whine bout it, I will tell myself it's a gift? It's a plus thing. So cannot complain. Hahaha! Must think of the happiness we got also ma ho. Always think and grumble on those sad stuff then no fun d ba...

Somehow we human just focus on what's not going as the way we want but forgot bout the times where everything flows exactly how we want it to be, everyone does things just the way we want it. Just to let us happy. So much toleration. =') But seriously, cannot expect everyone to let u be every time lo right? People also human ma, got feeling de lo. Kekeke! 有时候真的看不过眼。可是又没有资格讲人。Haizz. Nvm la. Karma ma ho. xD I think I am taking a lot more than giving also. Hahahahah! Karma on me soon.

Oh. Was actually bored and gonna blog bout what's happening in my life recently. Seems like I focus a bit more on erhem erhem. Kekekeke! So weird. Hhahaha! I sometimes dont understand. Actually I still dont understand. Hahahaha! Slowly la.

Er. I am always a quite straight forward honest person. But sometimes, I really dont know how to tell lo. It's like if I tell, I will be the bad guy... I dont want to be the bad one... But if dont say it out, I scared i will explode one day. Hahah! So in the end also I will always tell. But take very long time. Well at least I tell.

Friends say I am too soft, lam pet pet. Easy to bully. Hahaha! Wrong lo, nobody can bully me. Hiak hiak. Lam pet pet, true la. Always cry =.= sien... My toleration consider high ba. Friends and family always say I will kena bully. Actually okok lo. I can protect myself. AHahahha! But if those who are close really bully me then no choice lo. They already know me then they still wanna do that 就算了吧. Haha! I always believe that those who really like me love me sayang me wont do bad things to me. Like my friend once said, it's my choice to trust u, and it's ur choice to proof me right. =D

So I am such person with such personality. And I believe that people will bear with me and stay if fate is there. If not then they will leave, no matter what... Uni friends, college friends or you... But nola. Hahaha! Sounds so 潇洒, actually I beg and pray hard that you will stay and last lo. xD Siao zha bo...

我是个多疑的人. 同时更是个有信念的人. 一切随缘. (Or 元? Kekekekkek.) Yayy! 信念! ;D

Wooh~ Cool ice box. <3

Hee hee~ Dont slap me.

Hee hee~ Happy la. If nothing happen. If sad things happen then after that only continue happy lo. Wakakka~

Oh. Finals, Dissertation, French trip, Friends trip, Year end trip, You and me trip. But 돈이없어 어떻게. Hahaha~ Save and earn la. Stupid.

처음이다

Was supposed to think of what I wanna do for this brand new year. It's already March and I still have nothing on mind. Maybe because I have done quite a lots of things I have always wanted to last year. (Which were mostly doable with money.)

For 2013, I really have nothing much on mind except to go through all my exams safely, do my assignments quickly, complete my dissertation finely and graduate my degree nicely. Hahaha! Sounds so simple... =.= But that's pretty much what I should do for this year, to the extend that I even give up on planning trip which I promised to myself. (Well, if I go through my degree safely, France is where I am going. So there is still a trip. Kekeke!) So ya... Basically 2013 is all about the degree, learning to swim, Korean, harmonica and picking up bike riding (as if it's easy). Pick up more good habits instead of sitting infront of the laptop I should.

Be a better person. Be truthful to myself and others. Be hardworking. Be nice. Be confident. Be happy. Be everything good which I never/seldom practice before this. Be environmental friendly. And be happy again.

Oh. Even though, I mentioned that I have nothing much on mind for 2013 (at first) but now err greedy a bit. Something/one came along the way, and so I wish it lasts. Finger crossed. And stop thinking so much. Today my friend just mentioned, I shouldn't just use d'brain at all time, sometimes things get better without d'brain I guess.

And for the title. Recently feel so stupid sometimes. So many first time. Omg. It's like going into the dark without knowing what's inside. Like going into the exam hall without studying, better still, without knowing what subject u are taking. Scary shit... Oh well. Everything has it's first time. I think it's just that I am getting more timid as I grow older.

Internship
Met people. Made friends. Crazy people Fun friends. It's so fun I am gonna die. Hahaha! Learn so much from new friends. I miss old friends too. I realised they really care bout me so much. =') Gamdong. Thank you. I will be more expressive next time I see u guys. So that u wont feel that ur concern is wasted. xDD

Peace. ^^

Bye, 2012.

Typical post for another year end/new year. But this year, 2013, I don't feel like it's a whole new year. Maybe because there isn't any long break in between. Everything is like overlapping each and other. Fun but mum nag...

I have a habit of writing out new year resolutions like the others since 2010 I think. Well, it was a new thing I learnt about back then, and they say by making list of what u are going to achieve in the year helps u to be a successful person. Wanted to be successful I guess. Hahaha!

My past lists were a bit kiddie but 2012 one was fine I guess. (2012's New Year Resolution)

• Sleep earlier. (On the to-do list since the day I learnt to make new year resolution list)

Always fail. This is still gonna be on the 2013 list. x/

• Learn something new.

I actually bought a harmonica. But I havent master it. Or better still I only trried like once/twice on the same note. I started to learn swimming too. Only swam for like 4 times? Fail case. But my friends say I actually know how to swim. Just dont know how to breath. =.=

• Tattoo?

Not done yet. Fear blocking my way. Ya. Would like to try. One who scared of injections wanna try having tattoo. So not proud of myself. Big headed? Don't wear too big a hat! (Seek help from my friend who in the end get this from her dad! Hahah! Pro!) Still doing it.. Soon as I figure out what to be on my skin for like forever? YOLO much

• Blood donating.

Done. Like finally. So far once. There was a problem with my blood, don't know if it get through the test or they threw it away. But I guess I will soon do the good deed again. Of course, check with them is my blood useful or not first... Very geli but well. Blood bank lack of blood. More Blood!!

• Go abroad.

Hahaha! I made it! =.= Lame. But yea. I nvr been abroad before but in 2012 (was 20 yrs old) I went out of Msia twice!!! Not like I went on any glam trip oversea or what. I basically went to Thailand with 1 of my friends. Me so proud of this. Thank my friend too if not I wouldn't be able to I guess. Then went Singapore with another 3 friends. I miscount my budget, could have spent more on what I wanted. Shit... I will do better next time. Lack of experience. Will gain more. Found some good and suitable kaki to have fun together.

I don't knw what else I listed down for 2012. Couldn't find the paper/file. Hahaha! But mostly these.

I hv tried so many things this year. I guess my friends around me have me enlightened. I have changed, so much difference compared to the 'old' me. I didn't want to admit I hv change probably because I think I have changed into a worse one and didn't wanna believe in that. I am now open to it already. I have changed for good. Better person? Better thinking? Better future? Its okay, I am okay like this. I believe that when I am going the wrong way friends will hold me back. Then it will depend on me whether or not to be able to do whatever that helps.

Think too much. I am all good right now. And older. I so wanna make new year resolution list for 2013. But still doesnt feel like a new year to me. I will perhaps do it soon as the feeling/mood/idea comes.

I wish u a great year ahead. To the World! And to my friends! And to my family! Of course to Yi Wen!

Peace.

Pieces

Wasn't sad or emo or near anywhere negative. But when I hear this playing back in my car, it got me thinking.

I tried to be perfect

But nothing was worth it

I don't believe it makes me real

I thought it'd be easy

But no one believes me

I meant all the things I said

If you believe it's in my soul

I'd say all the words that I know

Just to see if it would show

That I'm trying to let you know

That I'm better off on my own

This place is so empty

My thoughts are so tempting

I don't know how it got so bad

Sometimes it's so crazy

That nothing can save me

But it's the only thing that I have

If you believe it's in my soul

I'd say all the words that I know

Just to see if it would show

That I'm trying to let you know

That I'm better off on my own

On my own

I tried to be perfect

It just wasn't worth it

Nothing could ever be so wrong

It's hard to believe me

It never gets easy

I guess I knew that all along

If you believe it's in my soul

I'd say all the words that I know

Just to see if it would show

That I'm trying to let you know

That I'm better off on my own

Maybe I try too hard to hide?

Maybe I try too hard to be presentable?

Maybe I should give myself a chance to be who and what I really am?

Maybe I should give others a chance to see and accept who and what I really am?

Try so hard just to be perfect in others eyes...

Punishment

Whole bunch of promises. Unfulfilled.

Too many people making promises and not keeping it. I had zero expectation, expected zero commitment, zero promises from u all. But u guys were the one making promises. Since u initiated and promised, so why can't u keep it? 

OR PLEASE, just never say anything u are not gonna fulfill. It's not necessary. Please don't act like u are a good, kind person putting up with things just because u're just too fking kind, nice and good hearted.

Well. Even u have done these. A 'sorry' could have solved everything easily too. Don't pretend like nothing just happened. Bitch much.

I made a mistake. I couldn't undo it. I just couldn't get over it at this very moment and I just had to emo for the day. So I have decided to reward myself with a little punishment. So here comes the punishment. Bread week for next week. PLEASE never ever do that again.

A little Hope

The more I see, the smaller I feel.

So tiny.

So small.

So minute.

So insignificant.

Still.

We must have Hope.

With the hope of fixing the world,

I have the responsibility to first fix myself.

Animal land. The Giraffe.

Went to The Giraffe on the 15th of July. Posting it after such long time. I blame my phone and laptop, they aren't working well.. Ish.

Planned to go with friends but went with family instead after receiving a cash voucher from my work place, The Shepherdoo under Inspiration F&B Group. Part of their marketing thing for the new restaurant I guess.

Picture sourced from The Giraffe

We went there on a Sunday afternoon, was not crowded but was occupied with quite a number of tables.

Their menu is like putting the whole world in it. They have a lots of different dishes from all over the world. What I have spotted were the German sausage platter, Korean pajeon, Malaysian mee mamak, Hainanese chicken rice, Greek flat bread, Italian pasta and American burger. And a wide selection of pork. So non halal. Visit The Shepherdoo for no pork menu!

Their restaurant theme is so colourful! I like colours. Didn't took much picture.

Giraffes at the back! =D

Always love sausages but seldom come across pork sausage.

Munich Sausages
Background: (L) Green Tea Flavoured Beer
(R) Centrepiece - A Tin with Notes on Clips

 Ribs~ Tasted very nice. Love BBQ food.

BBQ Pork Ribs

Pork Tower Burger. I love this! Pork patties with bacon! But serious, have to share, it's like 3 burgers in it man.

Townhouse Burger Stacko

Bacon. Yum~

Meatball Carbonara

I love this Citrus Coooler! I can't really taste sourness, very bad taste bud. But this is like er.. Optimum level of sourness and it's very refreshing. Something like lemonade but with fresh citrus fruit! 

Citrus Cooler

This is the Hot Chocolate Lollipop drink. Forgot to take the before picture, sisters and me were too excited. There are plenty of chocolate flavours: mint, hazelnut, Kahlua and more. Too sweet to my preference. But it's a fun drink. Hahaha!

Hot Chocolate Lollipop Drink

Creme Brulee Coffee

I love their food menu! So many choices and fairly priced too. But most of their dishes come with crinkle fries, too much of it. Maybe they will soon offer some different sides rather than loads of fries.

Drinks are awesome for gatherings too. Plenty of choices and very colourful too! =D

Soon. Will bring my friends there. One of them is also a giraffe! A lady giraffe. xD

Discovered some awesome food blogs on The Giraffe, Klang. Visit for more info? And nice pictures!

• The Giraffe by Big Boys Oven
• The Giraffe by ohFISHiee

Move! Moveeee!

I needa list these down. For future reference maybe. Or just to remind myself of them. Add some goals in life will make it more colourful I bet. I LOVE colours. =D


1. Donate blood.
- I have never do this before. Just thought of contributing a bit to the world I guess. And I have heard that you can't donate blood for i-dont-know-how-long after you got inked.


2. Get inked.
- Just would like to try. Kinda scared & not sure if it will affect life. People do judge. =/ Hence doing it on a not-so-obvious part of my skin.


3. Go abroad.
- Never been abroad before. Wanna go Egypt since 9. Will be there someday. Now just looking forward to go somewhere near but out of M'sia. Hehe! Just got my very first passport. Am going to Thai soon with my friend. Hope everything goes well! Everything Safety first! ;)


4. Mastering English, Mandarin Chinese, Korean, French and Spanish.
- This is a freaking hard one. English itself is enough to kill. But no, I am still gonna move towards this. I don't really know why would I wanna learn these but just feel like it. So do it while I can I guess.


5. Learn a musical insturment (Harmonica/Violin/Drum)
- I wanted to learn playing Violin since small but I never have the courage. =.= Now that I have grown so much older, I wonder if I can/should take up this. I am kinda tone deaf. I like to listen to music like if a restaurant without music I will feel kinda annoyed but when there is music I don't really listen. I don't know the lyric I just follow the tune. And I can't sing. Guess I will try Harmonica, it's a lot cheaper than the other two from what I see.


6.


(To be updated from time to time) ;D

No problem stays...

It sucks to feel alone. The loneliness. I have been like this since primary school. Why am I expecting more now... I try hard to stay with people around me, keep them with me. I know they will eventually leave. But I really hope they won't. I don't want them to leave me.


I sometimes think I have gone overboard to do things I can't really afford too just to keep myself with them.. Guess I will have to except that we need to let them go if they want to leave. Just not meant to be...


No problem stays. This will be gone soon. Just that at this moment I so hell damn wish to talk to someone.. But who.. And how... ='(

能理解吗？

为了让我看到好的同时，其实我看到了更多的不好。可能随着年龄增长，想的多了，在意的也多了。我明白之中的好意，只是我不明白这怎么会是个好事，也不觉得这是好事。请原谅我的埋怨。我真的不明白，也看不透。请给我多一点时间。


真的很不喜欢世界上没有一个人能明白的感觉。

The Apple Theory

There is an apple.

A fine apple.

I eat the apple.

The apple is sour.

I don't like sour.

I bear the sourness.

To eat the apple.

It's still sour.

I don't like it.

I can eat it.

Not all the time.

Not the apple's fault.

To be sour.

Not my fault.

To not like sour.

The sour apple.

Meant for the others.

I pick other apples.

From time to time.

Still take sour apples.

All the apples.

Belong to a taste bud.

As long as it's a good apple.

People take it.

Good for health.

I still like apples.

Dear cat, i.e. Lives.

Saw a cat died by the road, hit by a car most probably. Another cat stunt there looking at the dead cat. Hopelessly stunt there. I look back from my car, that cat just stunt there, not even a blink, a single move, until it disappeared from my sight. 


Guess it was trying hard to interpret: Would you stand up and walk away with me now? Will you answer my questions? What had happen? What does this mean? Are you leaving me alone forever? Please wake up, will you?


Couldn't help it, so I cried instantly. But I know, that doesn't help at all. It's so limited what we can do. Or to be exact, what we will do. 


I might be a compassionate person, but I am not at all caring. I could have help the cat, I don't know how but I didn't help, didn't even try to. So heartless. I wish the help will reach them soon.


Death, we can't control. How heart stripping it is, we will have to bear with it. So cherish the lives while you  can I guess.


Yesterday, my supervisor helped me in my "Sell PUMA shirts for HOPE worldwide" project. He bought 1 of them. So nice of him. Then I approached the boss of my workplace. He willingly, immediately said yes to me. Asked him which colour he prefer he then said the amazing sentence "Never mind. I will take both." Woohoooooo~ I literally screamed in my car on my way home. 


Was very happy. Underneath the happiness, I realised I didn't do the sales process well. I must do better next time! Sold all 4 shirts! All thanks to my friend, my supervisor and my boss! So kind of you guys. I thank you guys on behalf of the HOPE worldwide and the children to be helped by HOPE worldwide too. Thanks a lot.


Halo and Hai! To everyone, please do visit the HOPE worldwide's website (http://www.hopeww.org.my/). They offer volunteerism opportunities too!


Let's mourn for the cat together for 3 minutes.

Heart. Why u no tilt to the right?

One question. (It was important but looked back, it was kinda stupid. hehe) Will you go home to get the card and go to the nearby store for 10% discount (Which in this case RM20+.) Or will you just buy at where you are right now?


Choices were there. But I couldn't decide. Called 3 friends. All of them say go for discount. Which means go home. End up I did buy my things at where I was & with 10% discount too. Guess my action went over my thought. I went up to people to borrow the card. I got it from the 2nd victim. Thank God she is willing to lend it to me! =D Thank you, Ms Yong (name on the card).


Wahahahah! Then I went exploring in PJ, Aman Suria. Dragged my friend along last week. xD Today went alone to collect my mille crepe cake. Only then I realised I searched for the way to go there but didn't think of the way to come out. I know the way roughly but called PJ friends for help. xD 


All these were actually for mama's birthday. Will be on next post! =D


Some friends go ALL out to help you. Some friends TRY to help you. Some strangers are WILLING to help you. I am not complaining about people nowadays don't really help. I believe I had gotten more than I should have. And I appreciate it. Nevertheless, I understand people are not there just to help you. We don't own them. 别人不帮你是应该的，帮你是出于交情。




The title were saying......
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明知人的心都是偏的。很多人却无法试着看透而接受事实。大概因为都是人吧，总会反复地想：为什么不偏向我。钻牛角尖。我自己也就看透了吗？大概也没有吧。只是看开了。


Wah~ Another point of Le Journey de Enlightenment! xD

Trip. Lost.

Went KLCC for PC fair. Hahaha! Wei Sheng fetch us but he didn't have anything to buy so kind of him. He says '陪你们走走嘛' =')


Bought pen drives, ink,and my darling RED hard drive!

RED!!!

And then we went Ben's for lunch!!! Thank you for taking my suggestion! =D This is like one of the restarants I wanna go man. FINALLY there!!! =D

Ben's

To me, the price range of the restaurant is more than reasonable I would say. Cause their food portion is really big. =D Of course nice too. 

Xin & Kim Leong

Uncle Wei Sheng. xD

Garden Spritz (RM9.90)

Very refreshing but a lil too sweet though. Sprite with peach puree, lemon & thyme. :D

Wild Mushroom with Mascarpone (RM22-26)
*Cant really remember*

Kim Leong's. This mushroom mascarpone thing is nice!! It has the smell of Tiramisu. Hahaha! <3 Mascarpone!

Creamy Tomato Spaghettini (RM22-26)

 Pei Xin thought it will a pasta with creamy white sauce but it turns out to be all tomato.. xD

Carbonara (RM22-26)

Many of my friends like carbonara, and I always try a lil bit of them. Wei Sheng ordered this. It is not the best of what I had but it's good! =D

Grilled Pesto Chicken Sandwich (RM23++)

I was craving for pesto. Should have take pesto pasta instead of sandwich.  I didn't finish the whole thing. It's nice but it's chicken breast.. I don't like chicken breast, so drryyyyy... Salad sooooo salty. Their bread so grainyyy~ I like!

Yam and Sweet potato chips on the side!! =D

Big breast... =.=

Ben's Overall
Food is all nice. The environment wasn't nice though, we were sitting at the outer part of the restaurant. Noisy. Service is just so so. There was a guy who seems higher position than the others but he acted very rude to the customers. There were foreigners too, I bet Malaysians' image all just went down the drain because of that rude guy. He put on a pissed off, rude, 0 smile face instead of welcoming the guests. Shame on you.. But the order taker and the person who pour water/clear/bring out menu (Don't know what is it call as) were friendly. =)


Food: 8/10
Environment: 5/10
Service: 4/10


Then we went around KLCC and decided to go Pavilion. WALKED there. I didn't know it was so far. The ppl at the counter there says :" Just turn left go up the bridge and it's 15 mins to Pavilion." Sounds so near but ya... And I was in my heels... But I was so excited to the point that I just didn't care how long and walk till I see PAVILION! Then sweat like buffalo...


And and and and and!!! I saw one of the body guards/security guards don't know what guard but ya. Who was also working at the Sepang circuit during the F1 season. Sounds like a bimbo but ya.. Really so leng zai!!! (My own unique definition of leng zai. x) ) He looked at me. No. I mean glanced. Just one glance. I wonder if that means he realises he saw me somewhere before this. Haizzzz. Should have at least say hi or at least smile right. But I just stunned there. =.= Stupid. I guess this is what my friends called as Crush.. Hmmm. Big one.. 


NEXT!


Tokyo Street!! =D Went there, looking for macaroons.

To avoid big face, SWAP! =D

KLCC

Walk back to KLCC. Paid for parking, Got shocked. RM19  o.0

So tired.. Went Jojo pan mee. Not nice. The noodle too hard... My aunts' Pan Mee still the best!!! Should advertise them soon!

Jojo Pan Mee Overall
Food: 4/10
Environment: 6/10
Service: 5/10

Yum~

I tend to do this pose when camera is on me... Weird & retard face. xD

Not camera friendly. xD

I like going around the town like this! Sound so sua gu but ya... I am. xD 
Just sitting in the car, looking at every building every trees every human every thing with my mouth wide opened. 
Suddenly life feels so much easier, alive, meaningful & peaceful.


Love Life! Live Life!