Pieces

Wasn't sad or emo or near anywhere negative. But when I hear this playing back in my car, it got me thinking.

I tried to be perfect

But nothing was worth it

I don't believe it makes me real

I thought it'd be easy

But no one believes me

I meant all the things I said

If you believe it's in my soul

I'd say all the words that I know

Just to see if it would show

That I'm trying to let you know

That I'm better off on my own

This place is so empty

My thoughts are so tempting

I don't know how it got so bad

Sometimes it's so crazy

That nothing can save me

But it's the only thing that I have

If you believe it's in my soul

I'd say all the words that I know

Just to see if it would show

That I'm trying to let you know

That I'm better off on my own

On my own

I tried to be perfect

It just wasn't worth it

Nothing could ever be so wrong

It's hard to believe me

It never gets easy

I guess I knew that all along

If you believe it's in my soul

I'd say all the words that I know

Just to see if it would show

That I'm trying to let you know

That I'm better off on my own

Maybe I try too hard to hide?

Maybe I try too hard to be presentable?

Maybe I should give myself a chance to be who and what I really am?

Maybe I should give others a chance to see and accept who and what I really am?

Try so hard just to be perfect in others eyes...

Punishment

Whole bunch of promises. Unfulfilled.

Too many people making promises and not keeping it. I had zero expectation, expected zero commitment, zero promises from u all. But u guys were the one making promises. Since u initiated and promised, so why can't u keep it? 

OR PLEASE, just never say anything u are not gonna fulfill. It's not necessary. Please don't act like u are a good, kind person putting up with things just because u're just too fking kind, nice and good hearted.

Well. Even u have done these. A 'sorry' could have solved everything easily too. Don't pretend like nothing just happened. Bitch much.

I made a mistake. I couldn't undo it. I just couldn't get over it at this very moment and I just had to emo for the day. So I have decided to reward myself with a little punishment. So here comes the punishment. Bread week for next week. PLEASE never ever do that again.

A little Hope

The more I see, the smaller I feel.

So tiny.

So small.

So minute.

So insignificant.

Still.

We must have Hope.

With the hope of fixing the world,

I have the responsibility to first fix myself.

Animal land. The Giraffe.

Went to The Giraffe on the 15th of July. Posting it after such long time. I blame my phone and laptop, they aren't working well.. Ish.

Planned to go with friends but went with family instead after receiving a cash voucher from my work place, The Shepherdoo under Inspiration F&B Group. Part of their marketing thing for the new restaurant I guess.

Picture sourced from The Giraffe

We went there on a Sunday afternoon, was not crowded but was occupied with quite a number of tables.

Their menu is like putting the whole world in it. They have a lots of different dishes from all over the world. What I have spotted were the German sausage platter, Korean pajeon, Malaysian mee mamak, Hainanese chicken rice, Greek flat bread, Italian pasta and American burger. And a wide selection of pork. So non halal. Visit The Shepherdoo for no pork menu!

Their restaurant theme is so colourful! I like colours. Didn't took much picture.

Giraffes at the back! =D

Always love sausages but seldom come across pork sausage.

Munich Sausages
Background: (L) Green Tea Flavoured Beer
(R) Centrepiece - A Tin with Notes on Clips

 Ribs~ Tasted very nice. Love BBQ food.

BBQ Pork Ribs

Pork Tower Burger. I love this! Pork patties with bacon! But serious, have to share, it's like 3 burgers in it man.

Townhouse Burger Stacko

Bacon. Yum~

Meatball Carbonara

I love this Citrus Coooler! I can't really taste sourness, very bad taste bud. But this is like er.. Optimum level of sourness and it's very refreshing. Something like lemonade but with fresh citrus fruit! 

Citrus Cooler

This is the Hot Chocolate Lollipop drink. Forgot to take the before picture, sisters and me were too excited. There are plenty of chocolate flavours: mint, hazelnut, Kahlua and more. Too sweet to my preference. But it's a fun drink. Hahaha!

Hot Chocolate Lollipop Drink

Creme Brulee Coffee

I love their food menu! So many choices and fairly priced too. But most of their dishes come with crinkle fries, too much of it. Maybe they will soon offer some different sides rather than loads of fries.

Drinks are awesome for gatherings too. Plenty of choices and very colourful too! =D

Soon. Will bring my friends there. One of them is also a giraffe! A lady giraffe. xD

Discovered some awesome food blogs on The Giraffe, Klang. Visit for more info? And nice pictures!

• The Giraffe by Big Boys Oven
• The Giraffe by ohFISHiee

Move! Moveeee!

I needa list these down. For future reference maybe. Or just to remind myself of them. Add some goals in life will make it more colourful I bet. I LOVE colours. =D


1. Donate blood.
- I have never do this before. Just thought of contributing a bit to the world I guess. And I have heard that you can't donate blood for i-dont-know-how-long after you got inked.


2. Get inked.
- Just would like to try. Kinda scared & not sure if it will affect life. People do judge. =/ Hence doing it on a not-so-obvious part of my skin.


3. Go abroad.
- Never been abroad before. Wanna go Egypt since 9. Will be there someday. Now just looking forward to go somewhere near but out of M'sia. Hehe! Just got my very first passport. Am going to Thai soon with my friend. Hope everything goes well! Everything Safety first! ;)


4. Mastering English, Mandarin Chinese, Korean, French and Spanish.
- This is a freaking hard one. English itself is enough to kill. But no, I am still gonna move towards this. I don't really know why would I wanna learn these but just feel like it. So do it while I can I guess.


5. Learn a musical insturment (Harmonica/Violin/Drum)
- I wanted to learn playing Violin since small but I never have the courage. =.= Now that I have grown so much older, I wonder if I can/should take up this. I am kinda tone deaf. I like to listen to music like if a restaurant without music I will feel kinda annoyed but when there is music I don't really listen. I don't know the lyric I just follow the tune. And I can't sing. Guess I will try Harmonica, it's a lot cheaper than the other two from what I see.


6.


(To be updated from time to time) ;D

No problem stays...

It sucks to feel alone. The loneliness. I have been like this since primary school. Why am I expecting more now... I try hard to stay with people around me, keep them with me. I know they will eventually leave. But I really hope they won't. I don't want them to leave me.


I sometimes think I have gone overboard to do things I can't really afford too just to keep myself with them.. Guess I will have to except that we need to let them go if they want to leave. Just not meant to be...


No problem stays. This will be gone soon. Just that at this moment I so hell damn wish to talk to someone.. But who.. And how... ='(

能理解吗？

为了让我看到好的同时，其实我看到了更多的不好。可能随着年龄增长，想的多了，在意的也多了。我明白之中的好意，只是我不明白这怎么会是个好事，也不觉得这是好事。请原谅我的埋怨。我真的不明白，也看不透。请给我多一点时间。


真的很不喜欢世界上没有一个人能明白的感觉。

The Apple Theory

There is an apple.

A fine apple.

I eat the apple.

The apple is sour.

I don't like sour.

I bear the sourness.

To eat the apple.

It's still sour.

I don't like it.

I can eat it.

Not all the time.

Not the apple's fault.

To be sour.

Not my fault.

To not like sour.

The sour apple.

Meant for the others.

I pick other apples.

From time to time.

Still take sour apples.

All the apples.

Belong to a taste bud.

As long as it's a good apple.

People take it.

Good for health.

I still like apples.

Dear cat, i.e. Lives.

Saw a cat died by the road, hit by a car most probably. Another cat stunt there looking at the dead cat. Hopelessly stunt there. I look back from my car, that cat just stunt there, not even a blink, a single move, until it disappeared from my sight. 


Guess it was trying hard to interpret: Would you stand up and walk away with me now? Will you answer my questions? What had happen? What does this mean? Are you leaving me alone forever? Please wake up, will you?


Couldn't help it, so I cried instantly. But I know, that doesn't help at all. It's so limited what we can do. Or to be exact, what we will do. 


I might be a compassionate person, but I am not at all caring. I could have help the cat, I don't know how but I didn't help, didn't even try to. So heartless. I wish the help will reach them soon.


Death, we can't control. How heart stripping it is, we will have to bear with it. So cherish the lives while you  can I guess.


Yesterday, my supervisor helped me in my "Sell PUMA shirts for HOPE worldwide" project. He bought 1 of them. So nice of him. Then I approached the boss of my workplace. He willingly, immediately said yes to me. Asked him which colour he prefer he then said the amazing sentence "Never mind. I will take both." Woohoooooo~ I literally screamed in my car on my way home. 


Was very happy. Underneath the happiness, I realised I didn't do the sales process well. I must do better next time! Sold all 4 shirts! All thanks to my friend, my supervisor and my boss! So kind of you guys. I thank you guys on behalf of the HOPE worldwide and the children to be helped by HOPE worldwide too. Thanks a lot.


Halo and Hai! To everyone, please do visit the HOPE worldwide's website (http://www.hopeww.org.my/). They offer volunteerism opportunities too!


Let's mourn for the cat together for 3 minutes.

Heart. Why u no tilt to the right?

One question. (It was important but looked back, it was kinda stupid. hehe) Will you go home to get the card and go to the nearby store for 10% discount (Which in this case RM20+.) Or will you just buy at where you are right now?


Choices were there. But I couldn't decide. Called 3 friends. All of them say go for discount. Which means go home. End up I did buy my things at where I was & with 10% discount too. Guess my action went over my thought. I went up to people to borrow the card. I got it from the 2nd victim. Thank God she is willing to lend it to me! =D Thank you, Ms Yong (name on the card).


Wahahahah! Then I went exploring in PJ, Aman Suria. Dragged my friend along last week. xD Today went alone to collect my mille crepe cake. Only then I realised I searched for the way to go there but didn't think of the way to come out. I know the way roughly but called PJ friends for help. xD 


All these were actually for mama's birthday. Will be on next post! =D


Some friends go ALL out to help you. Some friends TRY to help you. Some strangers are WILLING to help you. I am not complaining about people nowadays don't really help. I believe I had gotten more than I should have. And I appreciate it. Nevertheless, I understand people are not there just to help you. We don't own them. 别人不帮你是应该的，帮你是出于交情。




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明知人的心都是偏的。很多人却无法试着看透而接受事实。大概因为都是人吧，总会反复地想：为什么不偏向我。钻牛角尖。我自己也就看透了吗？大概也没有吧。只是看开了。


Wah~ Another point of Le Journey de Enlightenment! xD

Trip. Lost.

Went KLCC for PC fair. Hahaha! Wei Sheng fetch us but he didn't have anything to buy so kind of him. He says '陪你们走走嘛' =')


Bought pen drives, ink,and my darling RED hard drive!

RED!!!

And then we went Ben's for lunch!!! Thank you for taking my suggestion! =D This is like one of the restarants I wanna go man. FINALLY there!!! =D

Ben's

To me, the price range of the restaurant is more than reasonable I would say. Cause their food portion is really big. =D Of course nice too. 

Xin & Kim Leong

Uncle Wei Sheng. xD

Garden Spritz (RM9.90)

Very refreshing but a lil too sweet though. Sprite with peach puree, lemon & thyme. :D

Wild Mushroom with Mascarpone (RM22-26)
*Cant really remember*

Kim Leong's. This mushroom mascarpone thing is nice!! It has the smell of Tiramisu. Hahaha! <3 Mascarpone!

Creamy Tomato Spaghettini (RM22-26)

 Pei Xin thought it will a pasta with creamy white sauce but it turns out to be all tomato.. xD

Carbonara (RM22-26)

Many of my friends like carbonara, and I always try a lil bit of them. Wei Sheng ordered this. It is not the best of what I had but it's good! =D

Grilled Pesto Chicken Sandwich (RM23++)

I was craving for pesto. Should have take pesto pasta instead of sandwich.  I didn't finish the whole thing. It's nice but it's chicken breast.. I don't like chicken breast, so drryyyyy... Salad sooooo salty. Their bread so grainyyy~ I like!

Yam and Sweet potato chips on the side!! =D

Big breast... =.=

Ben's Overall
Food is all nice. The environment wasn't nice though, we were sitting at the outer part of the restaurant. Noisy. Service is just so so. There was a guy who seems higher position than the others but he acted very rude to the customers. There were foreigners too, I bet Malaysians' image all just went down the drain because of that rude guy. He put on a pissed off, rude, 0 smile face instead of welcoming the guests. Shame on you.. But the order taker and the person who pour water/clear/bring out menu (Don't know what is it call as) were friendly. =)


Food: 8/10
Environment: 5/10
Service: 4/10


Then we went around KLCC and decided to go Pavilion. WALKED there. I didn't know it was so far. The ppl at the counter there says :" Just turn left go up the bridge and it's 15 mins to Pavilion." Sounds so near but ya... And I was in my heels... But I was so excited to the point that I just didn't care how long and walk till I see PAVILION! Then sweat like buffalo...


And and and and and!!! I saw one of the body guards/security guards don't know what guard but ya. Who was also working at the Sepang circuit during the F1 season. Sounds like a bimbo but ya.. Really so leng zai!!! (My own unique definition of leng zai. x) ) He looked at me. No. I mean glanced. Just one glance. I wonder if that means he realises he saw me somewhere before this. Haizzzz. Should have at least say hi or at least smile right. But I just stunned there. =.= Stupid. I guess this is what my friends called as Crush.. Hmmm. Big one.. 


NEXT!


Tokyo Street!! =D Went there, looking for macaroons.

To avoid big face, SWAP! =D

KLCC

Walk back to KLCC. Paid for parking, Got shocked. RM19  o.0

So tired.. Went Jojo pan mee. Not nice. The noodle too hard... My aunts' Pan Mee still the best!!! Should advertise them soon!

Jojo Pan Mee Overall
Food: 4/10
Environment: 6/10
Service: 5/10

Yum~

I tend to do this pose when camera is on me... Weird & retard face. xD

Not camera friendly. xD

I like going around the town like this! Sound so sua gu but ya... I am. xD 
Just sitting in the car, looking at every building every trees every human every thing with my mouth wide opened. 
Suddenly life feels so much easier, alive, meaningful & peaceful.


Love Life! Live Life!

Care No More

Will they think I am mad? Because I just suddenly cried in the bar. They sure think I am a freak... But the fact is some averagely rich ppl just simply don't know how to respect ppl. Just to let u know, u own neither the world nor our dignity. Only ur plain dumb pride.

I am still adapting to my new age. Things really changed or it's just me. As long as ur age >19 yrs old, ppl treat u differently, as an adult. But I still wouldn't accept the adult life. Ppl used to be a lot more nicer when I was in my teen age. Now ppl just don't give a damn. I know why, because they think we are all old enough to think and act rationally. Well, maybe they do but I really got stuck here. Growing up is just plain cruelty, which needs us to walk into the society which apparently is very realistic and lack of human touch...

Hahaha! Fun part of today's working session, 3 new team members who are all only 18 yrs old (exactly what made me think of my age...) are fun ppl. I was at first left out cause I was in the bar and I am only a part timer which means I don't see them often. But we later got closer, went through a short self-introduction session. All so young and lively. Hahahha!

Oh and I find one of the chefs' laughter conspicuous. Hahhaha! Ppl says yawning is contagious. I think laughing sometimes is too. Hahaha! Every time he laughs in the kitchen I will be laughing in the bar too. I must have looked stupid, luckily no one sees.

Adapting... Adapting... Adapting...

Processing... Processing... Processing...

Another start.

Went for F1 yesterday. To serve of course. My feet hurt like hell. Never felt such long term pain before. I promise, I will earn money on my own for a good pair of shoes. Black shoes which are comfy and look nice at the same time, tough job.


I actually went shopping for this F1 thing. Hahah! Got a Fila tee because they wanted us to wear plain white tee during set up.

Black shoes, Nail strengthener, White tee, Stockings

Uniform

Logo of DO & CO.

They have a manual for the service too.

Name tag.
Access card to enter the paddock.

Got this from sliding down the stairs during F1 service.

Not fun.

Went orientation today. Left my phone with my friends for awhile.

2 lil dino. xD

Didn't go through the whole orientation. Went lunch then home. Was walking alone to my car. Thinking of 1 friend of mine who is no longer in Taylor's. Used to see if we reach the car park at the same time, used to walk from car park to class with her, used to walk to the car park with her, used to go for Korean food together. Now no more. Puff... I wonder if I am gonna see her again. =[   A very cool but nice girl. Glad to know her even for not long. Oh. Suddenly reminds me that we still have a bet around. Korean et Thai food. =)

I miss some people who might not even remember me anymore. I can't believe the cruel story my mama told me was true. Life changes from time to time, so do people around us. ='[  No fun...

Wings et Bleu Cheese

Love shape chic breast.

Decided to make Buffalo style wings on my own. Hehe! Trying in a restaurant isn't a good choice. Don't like to eat wings with bone in the public. Hehe!

Bleu Cheese Dressing~

Have always heard that Blue cheese is very stinky. I was so scared when I was opening the packaging. Then I realised I have actually tried those blue cheese cubes when I was small. And I liked them. Hahhaah!

Chicken wings~

Bake them all!

Hot Sauce~

From the recipe, they say it should be eaten with celery. Hmmm.. Don't like celery. Haha!

Celery et Cucumbre

 Tadaa~ End product.

Maybe I got the recipe wrong. Not that nice also... =/