Actions are louder than Words..

Actions are louder than words. 讲。真的很容易。做很难。

Somewhere from the Internet. Self reminder. 

四年前 他问她：“如果有一天我和别人结婚了，你怎么办？”
她说“你敢，弄死你，哈哈”
他搂过她，亲了一下笑着说：“我哪可能娶别人啊”

两年前 他又问：“如果有一天我和别人结婚了，你怎么办？”
“如果有那天，我一辈子不嫁，一直等你”他搂过她，抱的很紧。

四年后的今天 他又问：“如果有一天我和别人结婚了，你怎么办？”
她坐在他身旁，看着他的眼睛，很平静的说：“找个人嫁了，结婚。”
他说：“你不爱我了？”
“对，你都跟别人结婚了，都不要我了，我还爱你干什么，爱和不爱有区别吗？”

末了，她还说了句：“放心，如果有那一天，我肯定不等你"

时间变了，同一个问题，答案也变了，不是不爱，而是自己长大了……

曾经的我走了，现在的我发现：不是当初爱错了、而是时间变了……
相爱真的没想像中那么简单…不是守着空荡荡的誓言就能够地老天荒……

如果一个人说喜欢你爱你，请等到他对你百般照顾时再相信，
如果他答应带你去的地方，等他订好机票再开心，
如果他说要娶你，等他买好戒指跪在你面前再感动，
如果他说他不能没有你，等他无论多忙都会抽出时间陪在你身旁时再相信，
等他在发现了你消失了以后像发了疯一样的寻找到你之后再热泪盈眶。
如果他说他一辈子都会对你不弃不离，等他在你任何困难危难时都抓着你的手陪你坚强度过时再深信不疑。
感情不是说说而已，因为，我们已经过了耳听爱情的年纪。

突然想起一句话：“任何一个人，失去了另一个人，都会活得一如既往。”

也许，这就是答案

Was asked to speak out. When I said it out, it doesn't seem to make any difference. Instead I hear the same thing over and over again. Knowing that it's not easy to do what one has said, I blame no one but myself. I have chose to believe. So I guess the least I can do is have Faith.

Hee hee~

I have nothing much on hand. But that big project which is the key for my graduation is a lil mind effing... Lalalala~ I will continue it! Later. xDDD

Hee hee~ Life changing incident? Hahahahha~ Dont know. Somehow it's fun and sometimes can be kek sau. However, every time I am starting to grumble or whine bout it, I will tell myself it's a gift? It's a plus thing. So cannot complain. Hahaha! Must think of the happiness we got also ma ho. Always think and grumble on those sad stuff then no fun d ba...

Somehow we human just focus on what's not going as the way we want but forgot bout the times where everything flows exactly how we want it to be, everyone does things just the way we want it. Just to let us happy. So much toleration. =') But seriously, cannot expect everyone to let u be every time lo right? People also human ma, got feeling de lo. Kekeke! 有时候真的看不过眼。可是又没有资格讲人。Haizz. Nvm la. Karma ma ho. xD I think I am taking a lot more than giving also. Hahahahah! Karma on me soon.

Oh. Was actually bored and gonna blog bout what's happening in my life recently. Seems like I focus a bit more on erhem erhem. Kekekeke! So weird. Hhahaha! I sometimes dont understand. Actually I still dont understand. Hahahaha! Slowly la.

Er. I am always a quite straight forward honest person. But sometimes, I really dont know how to tell lo. It's like if I tell, I will be the bad guy... I dont want to be the bad one... But if dont say it out, I scared i will explode one day. Hahah! So in the end also I will always tell. But take very long time. Well at least I tell.

Friends say I am too soft, lam pet pet. Easy to bully. Hahaha! Wrong lo, nobody can bully me. Hiak hiak. Lam pet pet, true la. Always cry =.= sien... My toleration consider high ba. Friends and family always say I will kena bully. Actually okok lo. I can protect myself. AHahahha! But if those who are close really bully me then no choice lo. They already know me then they still wanna do that 就算了吧. Haha! I always believe that those who really like me love me sayang me wont do bad things to me. Like my friend once said, it's my choice to trust u, and it's ur choice to proof me right. =D

So I am such person with such personality. And I believe that people will bear with me and stay if fate is there. If not then they will leave, no matter what... Uni friends, college friends or you... But nola. Hahaha! Sounds so 潇洒, actually I beg and pray hard that you will stay and last lo. xD Siao zha bo...

我是个多疑的人. 同时更是个有信念的人. 一切随缘. (Or 元? Kekekekkek.) Yayy! 信念! ;D

Wooh~ Cool ice box. <3

Hee hee~ Dont slap me.

Hee hee~ Happy la. If nothing happen. If sad things happen then after that only continue happy lo. Wakakka~

Oh. Finals, Dissertation, French trip, Friends trip, Year end trip, You and me trip. But 돈이없어 어떻게. Hahaha~ Save and earn la. Stupid.

처음이다

Was supposed to think of what I wanna do for this brand new year. It's already March and I still have nothing on mind. Maybe because I have done quite a lots of things I have always wanted to last year. (Which were mostly doable with money.)

For 2013, I really have nothing much on mind except to go through all my exams safely, do my assignments quickly, complete my dissertation finely and graduate my degree nicely. Hahaha! Sounds so simple... =.= But that's pretty much what I should do for this year, to the extend that I even give up on planning trip which I promised to myself. (Well, if I go through my degree safely, France is where I am going. So there is still a trip. Kekeke!) So ya... Basically 2013 is all about the degree, learning to swim, Korean, harmonica and picking up bike riding (as if it's easy). Pick up more good habits instead of sitting infront of the laptop I should.

Be a better person. Be truthful to myself and others. Be hardworking. Be nice. Be confident. Be happy. Be everything good which I never/seldom practice before this. Be environmental friendly. And be happy again.

Oh. Even though, I mentioned that I have nothing much on mind for 2013 (at first) but now err greedy a bit. Something/one came along the way, and so I wish it lasts. Finger crossed. And stop thinking so much. Today my friend just mentioned, I shouldn't just use d'brain at all time, sometimes things get better without d'brain I guess.

And for the title. Recently feel so stupid sometimes. So many first time. Omg. It's like going into the dark without knowing what's inside. Like going into the exam hall without studying, better still, without knowing what subject u are taking. Scary shit... Oh well. Everything has it's first time. I think it's just that I am getting more timid as I grow older.

Internship
Met people. Made friends. Crazy people Fun friends. It's so fun I am gonna die. Hahaha! Learn so much from new friends. I miss old friends too. I realised they really care bout me so much. =') Gamdong. Thank you. I will be more expressive next time I see u guys. So that u wont feel that ur concern is wasted. xDD

Peace. ^^

Bye, 2012.

Typical post for another year end/new year. But this year, 2013, I don't feel like it's a whole new year. Maybe because there isn't any long break in between. Everything is like overlapping each and other. Fun but mum nag...

I have a habit of writing out new year resolutions like the others since 2010 I think. Well, it was a new thing I learnt about back then, and they say by making list of what u are going to achieve in the year helps u to be a successful person. Wanted to be successful I guess. Hahaha!

My past lists were a bit kiddie but 2012 one was fine I guess. (2012's New Year Resolution)

• Sleep earlier. (On the to-do list since the day I learnt to make new year resolution list)

Always fail. This is still gonna be on the 2013 list. x/

• Learn something new.

I actually bought a harmonica. But I havent master it. Or better still I only trried like once/twice on the same note. I started to learn swimming too. Only swam for like 4 times? Fail case. But my friends say I actually know how to swim. Just dont know how to breath. =.=

• Tattoo?

Not done yet. Fear blocking my way. Ya. Would like to try. One who scared of injections wanna try having tattoo. So not proud of myself. Big headed? Don't wear too big a hat! (Seek help from my friend who in the end get this from her dad! Hahah! Pro!) Still doing it.. Soon as I figure out what to be on my skin for like forever? YOLO much

• Blood donating.

Done. Like finally. So far once. There was a problem with my blood, don't know if it get through the test or they threw it away. But I guess I will soon do the good deed again. Of course, check with them is my blood useful or not first... Very geli but well. Blood bank lack of blood. More Blood!!

• Go abroad.

Hahaha! I made it! =.= Lame. But yea. I nvr been abroad before but in 2012 (was 20 yrs old) I went out of Msia twice!!! Not like I went on any glam trip oversea or what. I basically went to Thailand with 1 of my friends. Me so proud of this. Thank my friend too if not I wouldn't be able to I guess. Then went Singapore with another 3 friends. I miscount my budget, could have spent more on what I wanted. Shit... I will do better next time. Lack of experience. Will gain more. Found some good and suitable kaki to have fun together.

I don't knw what else I listed down for 2012. Couldn't find the paper/file. Hahaha! But mostly these.

I hv tried so many things this year. I guess my friends around me have me enlightened. I have changed, so much difference compared to the 'old' me. I didn't want to admit I hv change probably because I think I have changed into a worse one and didn't wanna believe in that. I am now open to it already. I have changed for good. Better person? Better thinking? Better future? Its okay, I am okay like this. I believe that when I am going the wrong way friends will hold me back. Then it will depend on me whether or not to be able to do whatever that helps.

Think too much. I am all good right now. And older. I so wanna make new year resolution list for 2013. But still doesnt feel like a new year to me. I will perhaps do it soon as the feeling/mood/idea comes.

I wish u a great year ahead. To the World! And to my friends! And to my family! Of course to Yi Wen!

Peace.